I have no reason to do this because I am not that upset about it and I know it will change in the next few weeks but I am just really sick of looking fat!!!!
I am at that awful stage of pregnancy where you aren't showing but you aren't not showing. I keep telling people that I look like I have a really good cookie recipe. (Which I actually do have quite a few of but that's beside the point!)
Yesterday and today was "launch" at the gym which basically just means that me and the other step instructors presented the new release to the gym patrons as a big celebratory event. Of course we were supposed to wear matching outfits which consisted of black capris, light blue racer back tanks, and other minor accessories. I know it was "fun" and "cute" but I was the Jiggliest Joe in those tight blue tops and everyone watching my belly vibrations had no idea why!
I want to get a temporary tattoo for like 2 more months that says, "Not fat, just pregnant!" I feel annoyed too because it seems like all of my friends who got pregnant with their second babies started to officially show around this time. I am almost 15 weeks! Why not me? Why not yet?
The other thing that sucks is that all of my clothes are either uncomfortable or don't fit. I have one pair of jeans that I wore post baby after Jack and they are way to big but then I have like 50 pair of jeans that I can't even button. I am so tempted to put on the maternity crap because it is comfy and tent-like but I know I will just look silly. Argh.
The last complaint for no good reason is that I honestly haven't gained any weight and I look like I have gained like 10 pounds. How does that even happen?! It's not like the fat is being pulled from my legs, butt and back and being redistributed because those all look the same! It is just like there was a sack of fat hidden somewhere inside my torso and now this baby has wrapped itself up in it!
Ok, breathe, I think I am done. I just want to be one or the other, pregnant or not, I don't want to be "miss working hard aerobics instructor who likes baked goods a little too much!" How motivated would you be to go to someones class if they looked like they were gradually expanding rather than shrinking?! Ugh.