27.10.08

Can I just complain for a second?

I have no reason to do this because I am not that upset about it and I know it will change in the next few weeks but I am just really sick of looking fat!!!!

I am at that awful stage of pregnancy where you aren't showing but you aren't not showing. I keep telling people that I look like I have a really good cookie recipe. (Which I actually do have quite a few of but that's beside the point!)

Yesterday and today was "launch" at the gym which basically just means that me and the other step instructors presented the new release to the gym patrons as a big celebratory event. Of course we were supposed to wear matching outfits which consisted of black capris, light blue racer back tanks, and other minor accessories. I know it was "fun" and "cute" but I was the Jiggliest Joe in those tight blue tops and everyone watching my belly vibrations had no idea why!

I want to get a temporary tattoo for like 2 more months that says, "Not fat, just pregnant!" I feel annoyed too because it seems like all of my friends who got pregnant with their second babies started to officially show around this time. I am almost 15 weeks! Why not me? Why not yet?

The other thing that sucks is that all of my clothes are either uncomfortable or don't fit. I have one pair of jeans that I wore post baby after Jack and they are way to big but then I have like 50 pair of jeans that I can't even button. I am so tempted to put on the maternity crap because it is comfy and tent-like but I know I will just look silly. Argh.

The last complaint for no good reason is that I honestly haven't gained any weight and I look like I have gained like 10 pounds. How does that even happen?! It's not like the fat is being pulled from my legs, butt and back and being redistributed because those all look the same! It is just like there was a sack of fat hidden somewhere inside my torso and now this baby has wrapped itself up in it!

Ok, breathe, I think I am done. I just want to be one or the other, pregnant or not, I don't want to be "miss working hard aerobics instructor who likes baked goods a little too much!" How motivated would you be to go to someones class if they looked like they were gradually expanding rather than shrinking?! Ugh.

15 comments:

Mel said...

FYI...I have been to many a class at various gyms and must admit that I am ever so grateful when the instructor is not a teeny-tiny-svelt like thing. I want a HUMAN! Sorry to hear you are in this horrible phase of pregnancy, it sucks. That's all there is to it. I do propose that you put a sign at the door that states "Pregnant instructor...you too can look this awesome and have this much energy when you are expecting." Cause lets all face it, you always look great.

Jana said...

I think you should splurge on one expensive pair of jeans that you love, that fit you right now. Even if they only get you through the month... it will be worth the peace of mind. Then you can start wearing the maternity stuff when those don't fit anymore.
Well that is what I did anyway, and I felt much better.
Ebay has good deals on jeans, and buckle sometimes has really good deals on their factory irregular stuff on-line.

Kelli and/or Kyle said...

I so do not feel bad for you. I got asked today if I was pregnant and I'm NOT! So your situation is far better! So quit your bitchin! (I'm just kidding, don't cry.)

Amy said...

I say break out the maternity clothes, or at least those shirts that everyone is wearing right now that look like maternity clothes, because even though you aren't "showing" you should be comfortable in what you wear.

Amy said...

I say break out the maternity clothes, or at least those shirts that everyone is wearing right now that look like maternity clothes, because even though you aren't "showing" you should be comfortable in what you wear.

Heather B said...

Oh honey...that sucks, I'm sorry! It will pass soon. I vote wear your maternity clothes (or whatever is comfy) unless you need to look beautiful, then wear a SKIRT! I loved Mel's idea for a sign. You definitely have the right to complain since you are "on display" for all to see. Anyway, love ya! Awesome that you have gained any weight you lucky hooker.

Logan said...

They do make shirts that say "not fat... just pregnant!" Everyone I know who's had kids hates this stage the most, and I'm sure I'll be buying one of those shirts when the time comes. :o)

Sierra Prina said...

Hey you dont have it too bad... I feel like i look like that lately and im not even pregnant! Just carry around Jacks old car seat with a blanket over it so people think you just had a baby instead:)

KaSs said...

I've seen those shirts before, hop on the internet and buy one! :0) In a few weeks you'll be noticably pregnant, so just tough it out a couple more weeks! you can do it! :0)

Summer said...

Ah yes. This stage just plain sucks. You look fat, still too early to feel that little baby moving.....seems like there's no perks! And I can attest that the second pregnancy is definitely worse as far as the fatty look goes. Holy Moly did I look chubby for a while.....I'm talking a while. I don't really have much advice except to hang in there. Before you know it you'll be ginormous like me and wish you could have that pudgy stomach back if it meant being able to put on your dumb shoes and bend down without wearing yourself out! Sheesh! I'm SO ready to be done. :)

Jeanette said...

If it makes you feel any better, I wasn't really "showing" until 20 weeks.... so I was feeling frumpy and fat for a long time! That's when I started wearing maternity clothes and they're still too big, but my regular clothes are too tight, so it just sucks. I still feel like people might not think I'm pregnant, they might just think I am still hanging on to the baby weight from Lucy, a year ago!

I haven't gained any weight yet either and I'm almost 23 weeks, sounds nice to not gain weight but finally be looking pregnant? Not exactly! I am totally freaked out that I'm going to gain a bunch at once and get ridiculously huge stretch marks!

But I bet you look totally good and even in the tight tank, no one could see any flab, no one else sees you like you see you!

Sarah said...

Well i know exactly what you are going through, except i actually have gained a good 7 or so lbs and i look like it. Yeah i am only barely hitting 12 weeks and my pants are getting too tight and by night time i look like i am six months pregnant, i was sure i was having twins!!!

Jill said...

Not a great post to be reading as I finish my 34th peanut M&M...before 7:45 in the morning.

Anyway, you look great, I'm sure! I say splurge on a spa treatment and some new clothes and feel good, even if it's only for a day.

Also, train you're little boy to tell you how beautiful you are and get him to say it every 15 minutes.

Olga said...

I cannot really comment until I see a picture:)) I haven't seen pictures of you in.. forever! I miss you!

Bree said...

Um, first off, stop it. You're a pregnant aerobics intructor for heavens sake! Most of us just lie on the couch and eat Twix!! Just remember that we are our worst critic. I have NO doubt that you still look PHE-no-min-al for a non-prego woman, let alone 15 weeks along!

Second, I think you're crazy- WANTING to show! I say you are a lucky sucker that you aren't showing yet, 'cause if you were, imagine what you'd look like at 35 weeks! ;)