17.4.08

Kauai come and gone

Ok so Kauai was a total blast but not at all what I expected it to be. I was imagining a high pressure situation and to be totally uncomfortable. It turned out to be so relaxing and more like hanging out with a group of friends. Plus instead of still photos it was all video! How crazy! I guess the future of stock photography is headed towards video. I will post some of the stuff (if I am allowed to) when I get a copy of it. It may be a while so please have patience. :)

Now on to the more important issue of my day. I am going bananas! Currently Jack is in the other room screaming his little head off and it is all I can do not to scream my own off. Why is he wailing you ask? Because I put him down for a nap too early. Why did I do this you ask? Because he has been a terror all day long. Why has he been such a terror you ask? I don't freakin' know but I can't handle it right now, so there!

After sticking him in his bed I knew that he would just cry forever and ever and not fall asleep but I did it anyway. Am I a bad Mom? You might think so but let me just explain that I can only sing so many primary songs and do so many sets of "Head Shoulders Knees and Toes" before I go crazy. And the second I stop all of the charades he goes crazy. It is not a great combo. Plus when Michael came home from work today he couldn't find his key in his bag so he rang the doorbell, thus waking up the Chunky. See! He never got a proper nap in the first place. So it is ok for me to be forcing him to bed two hours too early. Justify, justify, justify.

On top of all this Chunky is mad at me, or at least doesn't want to be around me. When Daddy left to go surfing a half hour after getting home from work the baby threw a royal fit and pounded on the front door like a drum. He reached those rotund little arms as far as they would reach but never got his Daddy back. So to distract him, I picked him up and played peek-a-boo as enthusiastically as possible but to no avail. He did not want the Mommy he sees everyday, he wanted the Daddy who is only around half of the time. The one who gives him whatever he wants and plays with him unceasingly. Now don't get me wrong, Michael deserves to be surfing. Heaven knows that. I mean he works like a dog and hasn't really been getting a lot of surf time in because of how crappy the surf has been in the last few weeks. But, I hate the situation I am in right now. I hate it so bad that I feel I must blog.

Now I will go and pick up my baby and put on Baby Einstein and hold him calmly like we never had this fight. I am so grateful that I was able to sit here and rant and rave even if it made no sense. And one final thought to all of you who don't have children yet. Don't get discouraged by this little excerpt from the life of a weirdo, you should still plan on having kids and it will be amazing.

10 comments:

Carmen said...

ha! Too funny..I have so tried to let our little guy cry himself to sleep and it NEVER freakin' happens. My sister was making fun of me today because she thinks I spoil my child because I rock/bounce him until he falls asleep. My thought however, is if he is just going to scream incessantly and never fall asleep, isn't it better to help him fall asleep by rocking him in the first place? Otherwise it ends up taking twice as long...oh wow, did any of that rant even make any sense. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I hear ya sister.

jana739 said...

I see nothing wrong with putting your kid to bed early. If Carmen doesn't want to take a nap, she has to be in her crib for at least an hour for "Quiet mommy time" anyway!

KaSs said...

Can't wait! :0)

Kory and Amy said...

good times! I know your pain, (even though I am not a mommy, I lived with my sister before Kory and I got married to be her live in nanny, while her husband was on tour, and I still tend for her a few days a week) So that gives me the right to say, I totally understand! You are not a bad mom, its good for them to cry a little. :)

Summer said...

Oh Kat, I feel for you. And sometimes I justify doing the very same thing...ignoring my child to try and get some personal sanity. When Kennedy was about 7 or 8 months old she started to become a 'terror'. She was always so fussy and difficult. I tried so many things and couldn't figure out what the heck was wrong. Finally a friend recommended a book to me -- Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child.....and it saved my life! Turns out she wasn't on a healthy sleep schedule and after so long it caught up with her and being overtired turned her into a monster. After reading the book I was able to put her on a healthy sleep schedule and teach her how to put herself to sleep. I don't know if it would be helpful in your situation but I thought I'd put it out there. I've recommended this book to everyone cause it totally turned our lives around! I actually get some decent "me time" now during her naps and she's in bed by 7 or 8 and sleeps for at least 12 hours at night. Hallelujah! Granted, she can still be a pill....don't get me wrong, she's not an angel child. But that just comes with the territory. Hope things get better. Sometimes small phases come and go that aren't so pleasant, and it's okay to feel frustrated and down at times. Go outside and smell the fabulous ocean air and maybe you'll feel a little better. :)

Heather B said...

Ohhhhhh kat, those days are challenging without a doubt. Sometimes there's nothing else you can do, so don't feel bad about it. They'll never remember it anyway, and your sanity is IMPORTANT!
:)

Chloe said...

I cant belive how big he sounds... Just u telling me about him makes me go crazy !! When he was here a couple months ago he couldn't even walk..

Kyle and Brittany Peterson said...

SInce we just found eachother in this blogging world I don't really know where you reside. I hear talks about the surf and such so I'm assuming it's not Utah. Are you in Cali like us? And how's your momma? She was the best V.T. I have ever had, I guess she is the only one I had because noone else does their job. Ha Ha. But I do miss her, she always had the cutest lessons for me. Does she still love her garden? And as far as the mothering goes I guess I can't really sympathize with you. But I know it's worth it at the end of the day.

Jeanette & Jason said...

Chunky is mad at you because you're skinny..... and he's chunky. End of story.

Mel said...

AMEN!!! That's all I've got to say on the issue. Been there, done that..feelin' your pain. Blogging makes you a better mom cause it gives you the time to rant and rave, read it over, and realize that some things are just lame.